i haven’t logged into my blog in at least three weeks.
first, feliz navidad.
happy new year. 2015 has started off for me just beautifully with sleeping until 11, an intense hangover, and ended with mass amounts of greasy food and a nice dinner with family. oh, and some simply terrible weather
ocean beach, california
second, i lied about not logging in. i did the other day and wrote this ripping blog about how much the holidays suck. obv, i didn’t post it, but i didn’t for a few reasons. it wasn’t productive; it was freaking rude; i realized how pathetic i sounded. like woe is me, i didn’t get my way, first world problems bullshit. it took me three drafts until i was able to word it in a way that didn’t make me sound like a total ahole. i canned it a day later. i am so grateful for the time i’ve gotten to spend with my fam, practically cartwheeled out of my office for my week of vacation, and have eaten SO MUCH DELISH FOOD that i’ve picked up heavy breathing and my pants fit a liiiiitle snug. what the hell should i be complaining about? nothing.
ugly christmas sweater christmas eve.
so. in my realization that i sounded like a negative nancy, i started thinking about my resolutions for this year. i tend to shy away from making any “goals” because i find them cliched and the majority of the time, resolutions are forgotten by feb 1. i dont like the whole “new year, new me” because we shouldn’t wait for a new year to work on things we aren’t/weren’t happy with during the previous…plus, every year should start out as “THIS year will be the BEST year.” because a little positivity wouldn’t hurt anyone.
my cousin told me that she makes two resolutions. one that is totally obtainable like flossing her teeth daily (she succeeded), and the second is a little more unrealistic to achieve in a year but something she can still work toward. i liked that idea. so i did what any girl does when another girl presents an idea. i stole it.
so i decided to work on feeling a little more settled. my lack of blogging after craving for a creative outlet, lack of working out, and lack of health in general made me realize how out of control of myself i became. also, i legitimately moved toward the end of the year, and in with my boyfriend for the first time since we’ve been together and that completely shifted both of our worlds. i decided to become vegan, and then felt more comfortable with vegetarianism. i’ve really struggled with a balance of my life choices. so naturally, finding some point of settling down is my “unobtainable” resolution.
the obtainable one? losing this spare tire around my waist i’ve grown over the past month and rekindling my love for the gym. and breathing like a normal person again and not like i’ve just run a marathon from just walking upstairs to my apartment.
here’s to the new year, cheerz!